Soon the rain will wash away the sun.

I'm alone.
So, so alone.
I'm eating all the time. I'm sitting in my room crying all the time. I see life as a black and white haze. Not the beautiful picture I saw in the past. ADD is worse. OCD is worse. I feel the fucking need to talk to myself because I feel like no one cares. I need someone more than ever. I miss being held. And kissed. And I miss the feeling of having that one person to confide in. I miss having someone to keep all my darkest secrets and not judge me for them. I feel like I'm keeping so many secrets from the world. There's so much I haven't told. I wish I could. I really do. I feel like people will judge me and I can't be myself. I want to be Katy. Not the weird scary emo kid. I'm not weird or scary. I just want someone to love me. Is that too much to ask for? Really now is it? I want someone so sensitive, I'll make him cry telling him how much I love him.
Peace and Love,
-Katy